I got stoned last night… but it’s not what you think.
I dreamed I was speaking at an event.
The women in the audience pulled rocks out of their purses and threw them at me!
Good Advice I’ve Given
- Let yourself be vulnerable.
- Stop hiding.
- Quit playing small.
Not only have I told myself these things, I’ve said them to clients! But you know what? It’s not a “snap your fingers, wiggle your nose and it’s done” kinda thing.
I’ve felt the fear and done it anyway. I’ve gotten on stage and totally bombed because I was so disconnected from my body – phoning it in instead of being grounded and speaking from my heart.
People even sent me snarky emails afterwards (my biggest nightmare – along with being stoned!) because they felt I didn’t honor them. And as hard as it was to admit – they were right.
Once I faced that head-on, I went into a tailspin. I wanted to shrink down, crawl under a rock and never come out. I was swimming in a toxic sea of self-criticism, blame, regret and shame.
It was a slow climb out, with my ever-patient spouse, friends, coach and team pushing life rafts to me filled with food, hot tea, foot rubs, hugs and unconditional love. They were there on the shore to reach down and give me a hand as I slogged up the wooden ladder, put my feet on the ground and took a few steps.
Fast forward to massive healing of some ancient soul wounds. For starters, my mom followed the nurses’ orders to “cross her legs” to keep me from being born until the doctor arrived. As a child, I wanted to disappear. I tried to commit suicide when I was 7. I was “too much” for my dad and he belittled me – what a fitting word.
As an adult, I’ve taken baby steps into being visible: I decided to make a few 2-minute videos. I’ve written some vulnerable posts. I even tried FB Live. People are seeing me – the real me – and they don’t run away screaming or worse, throw rocks at me…
I’m so grateful for all the people who tried to keep me passive and small… and for those who loved me enough to reflect my greatness back to me. I’m ready to see the SHERO who emerges on the other side of this journey. I can see her in the women I admire: Maya Angelou, Brene Brown, Michelle Obama and others. She feels 7 feet tall. She radiates love. She has a voice that moves people to action. She says: I AM HERE. I STAND IN MY POWER. I AM FIERCE LOVE.
Beloved ones… light leaders, I believe most of us carry soul wounds that are stopping us from having the impact we came here for. I know it’s possible to heal those ancient hurts and come out of hiding.
If you’re in business, your clients have to see you and feel you before they can fall in love with you and want to hire you.
I’d love to talk with you about how to reclaim your infinitely powerful self.
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